I. Am. Pathetic.

Woah.. Some title for an entry in the "I Can't Get Over My Stupid Ex-Boyfriend" chronicles, huh? Yeah.. That's a thing. We'll talk about that in another post.

So back to the reason behind the title of this post. There seems to be this ideal that is fed to teenage girls (and women in general) that says:

"To get over your stupid ex, eliminate all signs of them in your life. Sever communication with them and friends you made/had as a couple. Delete them from your life entirely and it won't be a problem. You'll move on in no time. No biggy. Whatever."

WRONG.

I tried getting rid of everything! His t-shirt, his headphones, the texts on my phone from him, the couple of phone messages that I had left of him telling me he missed me and saying "Remember. I really really like you." He said that a lot, you know. "No matter what else, remember that I really like you." or "Hey beautiful girl, remember that I really like you." 

Please excuse me while I reminisce for a moment.

Okay. I'm finished. I tried to get rid of everything. (keep in mind that when I say I got rid of everything, it means that I put it in a box in my closet. I know. I'm bad at hard things.) Okay.  So I got all of his things back out because I was worse off without his stuff than I was with it. It has been a month since all of this happened, which leads to why I'm pathetic.

Ready for this?

I don't think you are.

Oh well. I'm going to tell you anyway.

I STILL SLEEP IN HIS SHIRT.

Boom. There it is. The cold, hard truth. That is why I am pathetic. It's not that I don't WANT to get over it. I do! There is nothing I want more than to sit down with him as one of my good friends again. 

So my question to you, my lovely readers, is this:

What helps you move on after a bad breakup?

Do you eat a gallon of your favorite ice cream? Do you watch Gilmore Girls and cry like a little girl while you watch Rory and Dean be in love? Or are you like me and you just wear your ex's t-shirt to bed and feel all twist and upside-down inside? TELL ME. I am willing to try ANYTHING. We can work through it together.

-Nikki

ps. If you ever need someone to talk to, my email is listed here. I'm here if you need someone to listen.